‘i am ready to die a violent death' by heiko julien // self-published, 2012
w/ his title Heiko Julién ‘prepares’ us for something ‘dark’
his intro ‘prepares’ us for something ‘humorous’
'You know how dogs arent really smling, theyre just panting? And they dont really kiss you, they just lick your face because they like salt? a lot of things are like that. i am like that'
Heiko disregards most punctuation through this e-book
he does not ‘heighten’ the ‘language’
to make it more ‘poetic’
Heiko exhibits a ‘self-conscious’ sincerity
this e-book ‘explores’ the contemporary American ‘climate’
a ‘Fast Food Wedding’ where the ‘preacher wears the drive thru headset’
does Heiko ‘try too hard’?
he ‘integrates’ ‘history’ into his ‘chapters’ (poems?)
'the native americans used to use every part of the buffalo / including the pink slime'
this e-book is ‘pop culture heavy’
seems ‘rife’ with ‘relatable’ content
seems ‘relatable’ to those who ‘grew up’ in the 90s
to those involved in the ‘Internet community’
Heiko seems ‘good’ at ‘surprise’
'good' at 'blending' surface-based images / content w/ 'sincerity'
'you can see a lot of Rare Vids of Young Dudes hanging out at home and doing funny voices if you search Just Chillin on youtube. go ahead and try this and maybe then you will learn how to love without needing to receive anything in return'
Heiko writes like a ‘child’ w/ an ‘adult’ consciousness
an ‘adolescent’ who has already read philosophy then burned the pages he read
or a really old kid who has found an odd form of Zen Buddhism
'one time I went to see xmen first class and did deep breathing exercises the entre movie. when it was over, was like Wow That Was a Good Movie'
his ‘chapters’ have the ‘brevity’ that Twitter breeds
the ‘cleverness’ / directness
sometimes I wonder what contemporary Western ‘literature’ would be
without cinema & television
Heiko starts ‘chapter 12’ w/
'culture began and ended when the butch kid from home improvement had that bowl cut ponytail hairstyle for a while. it began when he got the haircut and ended when he cut it'
& ends this chapter w/
'i can imagine in a certain sense it would be really exciting and interesting to be attacked by a shark in open water, but this is only because ive seen too much television
so now you maybe are starting to get a sense of how serious all of this actually is’
is he ‘saying’ that it’s ‘tragic’ that he can’t escape his ‘television-consciousness’?
the last chapter, ‘chapter 20’
is ‘given’ as a sort of dialogue between ‘Heiko Julién’ & ‘Ricki Lake’
it begins w/ ‘existential discourse’ abt how ‘nothing really matters’ & how that ‘makes [him] strong’
kind of like a ‘boosting’ bit
& then a list of things ‘Heiko’ has ‘realized’
then ‘Ricki Lake’ saying
'you are drawing energy from the void'
then Heiko responding: